I am!
For some reasons, despite my perfect scores in almost all of my classes, I still make stupid mistakes in my daily life that no normal person would make. I thought it was a brilliant idea to skip the agent and book the ticket by myself. I found a great deal, perfect time, price, and airline. Everything could have been so much better if I did not miss that one step of calling the airline to check back and confirm the departure and arrival time of all my flights right after I booked them. It seems like a demeanor, now it turns out to be my disaster.

So my flight is a connection of a bunch of transitions. Because I booked the ticket by myself, I have to calculate all the time difference between different destination, time of transition, and all kinds of stuffs like that I make sure I have a smooth flow. In retrospect, I could not understand why in the world I would book the ticket from LAX to HAN on May 5th at 1:15 am instead of on May 6th at 1:15 am to continue my flight from CLT to LAX at 8:44pm on May 5th. I remembered writing everything out and did careful calculation to come up with my best choice, and just 1 misstep leads me to a disaster. Good thing is that I check my ticket again tonight, so at least I do not need to freak out at the airport to find out that my flight to LA already took off ONE day before! I still have time to call my friend for support. At least I still have some luck...

 Yet cancelling the ticket and booking a new one still costs me nearly $400. I have lost a lot of money the last year for NOTHING. At the beginning of the semester, I lost nearly $200 for some stupid nonsenses that I did not even know. I learned my lesson of checking my bank account balance frequently to take action in time.

Then yesterday I found out that I was charged twice for overdraft. It was my fault but at the same time, not my fault. I keep checking my bank account frequently but not daily, and how unlucky I am that the day I found out I overdraft, it was my second time, so I could not get 1 refund of $35 back. Why it not my fault? Because I maintain a good debit balance until my friend my cheque to the bank to withdraw money out of my expectation, I have never really spent anything excessively. Why it is my fault? Because the cheque I gave to my friend should have been my savings cheque but instead I gave him my checking cheque, which obviously shows my carelessness and absent mind. 
 

And now, today, another time, I just threw $400 into nothing due to my carelessness again! Seriously this year I have lost $635 for nothing. I have earned no money for my parents and I am not taking their money away. robbing them brutally. I feel so ashamed of myself. 

I need to work hard to earn back this money. Last year was a dump year without much success but I learned a lot from failure and I want to prove that I can rise through the falls.